And Jilly T Tumbles

Sort of struggling right now. Like I’ve had a sudden and huge drop in my confidence levels. I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing as a teacher. I don’t feel good about my body. I don’t know what to do to change how I’m feeling and improve myself. A new year is supposed to be about starting with a clean slate, but I’m thinking about past times where I’ve told myself I’m going to make some changes in my life and nothing has happened and I don’t want to set myself up for failure again. I try to make myself feel better about my laziness by joking about it, but honestly I feel like shit about myself and the fact that I’m a complete procrastinator that doesn’t know how to get stuff done. But all I want to do is nothing. I want to lay in bed or watch YouTube or do anything but what I need to do. This is why I’m a shitty teacher. This is why I’m fat and really unhealthy. I don’t know who to talk to about this. I don’t want to scare my parents or my boyfriend or my friends, but I don’t want to keep avoiding the topic of how low I feel sometimes.